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Melanie's Fan Theory About Mystical Feather

It's beautiful.  Do you have any theories?  Whatever they may be, she's def coming back.  Brace yourself.  Motives are coming.

Are you an artist? Would you like to be featured in one of my ASMR role plays?

Hey guys! I have been playing with an idea for a role play for a little over a month now. If you have a deviantART account, or art site where you make your own art, or are an artist on Etsy, etc, and you are interested in having it displayed in one of my videos (an art curator role play or something similar), please let me know in the comments here.  Feel free to post your site too. I am thinking of doing a role play where I show some viewers' art. You guys know I LOVE art. I am always looking to do new kinds of ASMR role plays, and I would love to do one that includes some of you.  Please read this post carefully for details about this potential project.

•  You would need to be willing to give a piece of your art to me to use in a video---so I would need your permission in writing (I would tell you exactly what you need to write according to Youtube's copyright policies) to use your art piece.  You would def need to give me something that doesn't conflict with copyrights.  I don't mess around with copyrights---I will not use anything that could jeopardize my channel.  

• Depending on how many art pieces I use for the role play, your art may be featured anywhere from a few minutes to many minutes---I cannot give you a concrete set of time in which it will be on screen.
  
• The art MUST be yours---please do not volunteer other people's art---I will not use it.
  
• I won't be able to use art that could get my video flagged (violent or sexual images). 

• The art can be prints, jewelry, sculpture, cloth, masks, metal, stone, etc---I am really interested in using different types so I can create different sounds in the video (using my nails, or a pointer, etc).
  
• You would need to be willing to ship your art and pay for shipping.  I will not be able to ship it back to you, so please make sure you have something you are comfortable giving away.  If something is dear to you, or very valuable, please do not offer it up for this video---I know what art can mean to a person---I don't want you parting with anything you love.

• I won't have any pieces coming to my personal address---I am WAY too cautious with my privacy to be comfortable with that---so I will have arrangements in place to have them shipped to another state/states, then a contact/contacts will get them to me.
  
• I would credit you at the end of the video (including linking to your site), and on my blog. I would LOVE it if you could even give me a paragraph or two about yourself as an artist and your art to read in the role play (so I sound like a knowledgeable curator :p), so please think about what you would want me to say publicly about you and your piece.  

For this first art curator role play (if it happens) I will select a handful, or two handfuls of people, but if people like the role play and find it triggers them, we can make it a reoccurring series using more people. 

I will contact certain people who are interested in participating and get more information to ascertain eligibility (copyrights and shipping info). If you do not hear from me, please do not feel slighted---though I would love to use everyone, I have to do this in a way that 1. Doesn't overwhelm me or my resources and 2. Still keeps ASMR as the main focus.  Ultimately I am doing this to trigger people, and I don't want to lose sight of that while trying to coordinate with multiple people.  

This is still just an idea, and I am not guaranteeing that I will follow through with it.  So far, the response on Facebook has been a very positive one, so I am extending it here.  So if this is something you would be interested in, please leave a comment, include your site if you want, and I will take a look when I can (comp access is still limited).  Thank you for even considering this idea.   I think this could be really neat, and I would love to be able to include some viewers in this way.  

"There is only one way to avoid criticism: do nothing, say nothing, and be nothing."---Aristotle

A lot of you guys on facebook know I have been working on this blog entry for a bit. It was actually requested from quite a bit of people (ASMRtists and viewers). I mulled about it, and I finally decided to publish it today.  I hurt my back recently lifting something heavy like an idiot (used my upper back instead of my legs).  I am currently icing it down with a frozen bag of spinach, and using my sister's laptop to write this.  I logged on, found the standard number of trolling/hate messages to me, and thought "I'm stuck on my couch. My back just became the Duke of Douchebaggary.  I can't do anything.  I'm going to do this."

If you display yourself on the internet, you are almost certainly going to come into contact with WTFery.  ASMRtists are no exception to this.  While there are some super thick skinned and witty troll slayers in our wonderful little niche (shout out to the gorgeous and talented Amal---one of the best brains around town, and one of the most unflappable people I have ever encountered), many people enter the community not knowing what to expect or how to handle what is said to them.  Even seasoned ASMRtists can be wounded by internet shenanigans.  As a result, many leave, take hiatuses, close their channels, or take things to heart.  So for this entry, I want to talk to you about what kind of things might be said to you, why they are being said, and the options you have upon receiving them/finding them. By no means is my word law---I am just a dorky girl who talks to her camera for hours in her pajama pants---and I am going to speak to you from my experiences.  I am going to give you examples of things that have been said to me, but I don't want this entry to be something that makes you mad or sad.  I have cherry picked some of my favorite comments/messages that I have used to cheer up other ASMRtists, or just crack me up.  I want it to be something that can make you laugh, and perhaps inspire you to keep trucking no matter what someone says to you about your endeavors.  Let's give this a shot, shall we?

What I am going to say might sound harsh, but stick with me, alright?  You are going to be judged.  I am not saying that you need to be complacent with the judgments, or that people are right to judge---I am saying it's going to happen.  The possibilities are endless:  If you don't show your face, people will attack you for your anonymity.  If you show your face, people will call you an attention whore---heck, even if you just show a picture of yourself, you can get called a narcissist.

Ex.  "Did you REALLY need to paste a picture of yourself on this video? Are you that needy?? It's a damn audio only asmr vid, you could of put some relaxing picture of a pond, or lake, or anything, f***ing eagles flying in a shape of a unicorn. But instead it's of you cam whoring. What? Did you think we'd forget who makes the videos /u/sailorchell?  Like come on, this comes off so attention seeking it hurts, or like gender manipulation. It's almost as bad as those YouTube vids that have a pair of tits as thumbnails for a video like "here is a list of my fave movies". Vying for views with shallow actions just turn people off. We want genuine, sincere asmrtists, not someone who is basically that kind of girl who you'd see taking a sexy fullbody shot just to show off a new mug she got."

 If you are a male, there are people that will attack your sexuality. If you look nice, people are going to say you are using your sex appeal to get views.  If you have breasts, there are people that will call you a slut.   If you have a high voice, people will call you fake. If you have a deeper voice, people will say you are using your sexuality to get views.  If you are confident, people will call you a bitch.  If you are unapologetic about doing what you want, people will call you arrogant.  If you are open about your life, people will use the info to hurt you, or question your character.  If you are shy/introverted, people will tell you you don't belong on the internet.  You might hear these things, and you might hear them often. It doesn't matter how well meaning you are or how many subscribers you have---the dark side of the internet can be like a bouncing little demon baby, full of unconditional malice, and there will be days that it wants you to be its playmate.

 You might encounter trolling.  A troll post is one that's intended to get a rise out of you and/or your viewers.  They're looking to incite an emotional response.  Many times you will see them on loads of other ASMR channels trying to goad people into interacting with them.

Ex:. "F*** you *****. You're so annoying. I am a dude btw, so you know I'm not just some jealous ho; this is a genuine statement."

You might get creepy messages.  This is when someone tries to engage you in an unwelcome sexual way, or trick you into fulfilling a fetish request.  It is important to note that everyone's definition of a creep is subjective, and not all comments that have to do with your appearance are made with the intent to engage with you in a sexual way or objectify you, not all fetish requests are made in a disrespectful way, or that any sexual comment is made by a creep.  What matters is what your own personal boundaries are---unwelcome is key.

Ex: "i would really like to stick my ***** inside your *** while your ********. that would be swell.... i bet you have sexy feet too. lets take ***** together baby. then we can **** like bunny rabbits.i wanna suck ur toes and lick ur ***."

You might find there are people who loathe you.  A hater is someone who vehemently doesn't like you.  They don't know you, but they've convinced themselves they've got you pegged.  Haters are loyal.  They're the ones subscribed to you just to thumbs down your vid.  They're the ones who make a point to down vote you on reddit no matter what you post.  They comment on your vids/threads to tell you how inadequate you are.  You exist, and they want to let you/everyone else know how much you suck for existing.

Ex:  "Look at this white knight party you have going for yourself. You must be very pleased. I love how they all march over here to come and prove a few theories right about our rotund, reigning asmr queen. My shock is pretty low over the fact you've pretty much proved a comment I made last night right. I think it's well known by now that you read everything and anything to do with you. Got to fill that lack of self esteem and inferiority complex somehow."

There are people who will insult you because you/your videos don't fulfill their individual wants/cater to them in the way they think you should.  These people don't care that you aren't creating content for other people, because you should be doing everything you can to please them specifically. If it doesn't work for them, that means you don't work at all.  These are not people offering constructive criticism (constructive criticism is valuable and can help you grow as a content creator)---if you aren't acting in accordance with their wishes, they can attack your character, discredit your work, and sometimes even threaten you.

Ex:  "It's funny how a certain "supporter" of my channel can find the time to manage her own channel and read through her facebook, and yet can't find the time to "support" my own work. If your just going to tell me something I want to hear just to make me happy so I'll shut up for about to seconds, I will be incredibly disappointed. Yeah those 22 thousand subs of yours are blind to how you really are. I think its pretty obvious your aren't creating anything to help anyone. You just looking for attention for the least amount of effort. Way to fool about 22 thousand acting like your someone your not..."---a person who didn't like when I declined their many requests to make my channel a commercial for their let's play channel.

There are some people who can get unhealthily attached to you.  To them, you are not a stranger on the internet making ASMR vids, you are someone they have decided/imagined belongs in their real life.  These are the people who might try to find out where you live.  They watch who you interact with, they ask people they think know you for information about you, etc.  There are some days you might wish they were trolling.

Ex.   "It makes me a little uncomfortable that you never tell me anything...First, I wanted to let you know that in your last video, in the time light pass through the focus of the camera, causing a violet flashes deform your face to the viewer . I noticed this when passing the video frame by frame...I don't hesitate because of your silence. I felt , however , your signs , your keys , your hints, your little winks. Maybe just see what I want to see. I have so much fear that you don't want to want me!...If I changed my channel was not to deceive you, but to make this exchange between you and me more private."---excerpts from months of letters from someone who created multiple accounts.

There will be people who won't like how you comment to people.  There are those who won't like if you stand up for yourself or your peers, or even make light of negative comments.  Some people feel like you exist solely for content, and you shouldn't have a voice aside from the function they designate for you.  If you respond to comments/videos in a way they don't approve of, they feel it's a negative reflection of your character.

Ex.  "Heather I would appreciate clarification. You recently commented on an animal abuser's channel named Jenna Marbles. The woman is pictured shoving a helpless animal into a shower. I reported this video to YouTube and to PETA. You're supposed to be the Anti-Jenna Bush, the Anti-American Sorority Whore. Please tell me you didn't endorse this woman or I'm unsubscribing. You're Morrissey remember? Not Kardashian...You would note that I have unsubscribed from this channel although I have remained with Mariya. The only BS here is from your beloved director who feigns empathy while endorsing albeit impliedly cruelty."

Not every negative or harsh message/comment is intended to harm.  There will be people that just don't like you or your content cause something about you or your vids don't work for them, and they might let you or others know---but they aren't doing it with the intent to hurt you.  They are just stating their opinions, and while it might not be awesome to hear, it doesn't mean they are "bad."

Ex.  "I tried to like HeatherFeather but her voice just annoys the crap out of me. I wish it didn't because she seems to produce creative and regular content."

Why am I telling you all this?  This entry is long, and it might be things you already know, or seem obvious, and/or trivial.  If you watched my Draw My Life, or frequent my blog, you know I'm a spiteful woman who believes that "success is the best revenge," and I believe that people who are trying to hurt you are irrelevant.  But admittedly, I have really thick skin.  Not everyone has thick skin---and even those who do, aren't impervious to being hurt.  If it helps to visualize it this way, think of a mean spirited/unwelcome remark as a paper cut.  Is it going to kill you?  Nope.  Does it hurt?  It can.  Now think of getting bunches of paper cuts every week.  For some people (regardless of subscriber count), they come every day, across multiple mediums.  Eventually for some, it can become a death by a thousand paper cuts (death being a metaphor for closing their channel, or losing their drive to make vids, etc).  People tend to remember the bad more than they remember the good, and it just takes one "cut" to get under your skin.

SPOILER ALERT:  We know what happens to Drogo...

I have talked about giving power to people in "You're Not a Purple Frog" and I have talked about recognizing comments as being relevant or irrelevant in "True Life: I am an ASMRtist".  I want to talk about being "selfish" now.  Your channel is an expression of you.  It's your territory.  It's your place to create.  As such, it's important that you like the space you've created for yourself on Youtube.  We make videos for other people, but it's important that you make videos for you first.  Doing what you want, having fun with your ideas, enjoying the time you put into your channel---these are things that keep you driven to produce more.  If you are doing what you love, it's a lot harder for the kinds of negativity you might see to taint your endeavors.  Don't be scared to be "selfish," and try new things, or stick to old things---don't be scared to make yourself happy and comfortable.  It's your time and resources you are putting into your channel---spend them on something you can love.

Making videos for yourself and to your standards doesn't mean you don't care about your viewers---quite the contrary.  It means you care so much about your viewers that you want to give them the best work you can deliver without compromising yourself.  You aren't going through motions when you make a video.  It means you are giving them genuine efforts with the best attempts you can muster to give them something they can be proud of too---having viewers that are proud to be your viewers means more to you than just numbers.  Taking in the constructive criticism without taking in the nonsense, acknowledging the incredibly important feedback from your viewers, having pride in your accomplishments, investing yourself in your endeavors, enjoying working hard on something, all lend to producing better content for people---the people you WANT watching your channel.  As much as I am proud of my Youtube journey, I am SO proud of the friends and viewers I have---I have said it before, and I'll say it again:  They are some of the best people on the internet.

 Even though some of this might sound like common sense or redundant, I'm not sorry for writing this book of an entry---because there are lots of people in our little niche...and in life in general who think they have to accept/deserve what's thrown at them, or internalize it, or allow it to permeate their real lives in toxic ways.  You are allowed to curate your comments section so people aren't fighting with each other instead of relaxing.  You are allowed to block people.  You are allowed not to care when people don't like you.  You are allowed to be unapologetic for who you are and what you create.  You are allowed to disregard comments, and you are allowed to laugh at them.   You are allowed to make content in the way you see fit.

The people who find you are effective for them will let you know, and you can take pride in helping an audience that is supportive and kind and there for what you want to do.  You are allowed to be proud of your work.  You are allowed to be proud of yourself.  You are allowed to be happy.  So do what makes you happy.

I hope that this entry (if you made it this far) made you laugh, smile, feel determined to keep going.  I want to reiterate that I don't know everything.  I don't have all the answers.  I am not an expert or an authority that has any clout or control over the internet.  I have been a Youtuber for a little over a year and half and feel insanely lucky for every experience I have had as one.  I have met so many people I like and so much company that I care about, and I just want to keep seeing you all around the tube.