When I first started making videos, I went into it wanting to give back, but I wanted to do it my way. I made long videos, and I got quite a bit of criticism for it. I remember I had a few people in the ASMR subreddit who flat out said they would downvote my videos because they were an hour or more long, and that I must "be an attention whore with no life" for doing what I do. I didn't stop though...in fact...I think I made an hour and half video after someone said that, mwahahaha. http://media.tumblr.com/7a409ff19beb2546be5efc78d7921675/tumblr_inline_mlvk76AZNd1qz4rgp.gif
I have definitely changed a lot since I started my channel. I have gotten so much more comfortable being myself in front of the lens, because so many of you have made my channel a warm and welcoming place. Recently, I have really enjoyed sharing who I am with you guys (as far as things I love). It's been so much fun fangirling about Kingdom Hearts 3, Sherlock, Adventure Time, etc, and finding people that feel similarly and share my excitement/joy.
The world can be too big and so small, depending on the day. We all have our own worlds within the world, that we create and occupy. My ASMR journey has opened my world up---but this doesn't feel overwhelmingly vast---it feels like a little home we have made...I hope that makes sense. I have so many new friends, and friends who have been with me since the beginning (when I see their user names, I feel comforted because I "know" them). It has been a pleasure getting to do something I love so much with people I appreciate even more. I know this is sappy, just let me get it out. http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m47cv4qT2z1qii6tmo1_400.gif
I am trying to say thank you, but I have never been the best at utilizing words in a way I think best represents my feelings...and so I always feel indebted. This situation is no different. I hope you know how happy this has made me, and I will do everything I can to repay you for it.
Thank you for giving me the opportunity to try and ASMR you. Thank you for allowing me to explore different and sometimes weird ways to trigger you (trying new types of role plays, playing with repetitive sounds and words (sksksk, ok, good, perfect, palpate,etc), creating characters that sometimes have devious motives, etc). Thank you for trying to find the Easter Eggs that I have so much fun hiding in my videos. Thank you for all the encouragement, support, and friendships you have given me. Thank you for giving me excuses to play with things again...I can't stress enough how much I have enjoyed revisiting my past. Thank you for the nostalgia. Thank you for the laughs. Thank you for the sleep (fellow content creators). Thank you for everything. <3 http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_maz9t25vXO1rxmai6o1_250.gif